Slamming doors...

Sometimes it feels like you are walking through a world of slamming doors. You begin to second guess yourself, who you are and what value you truly bring-the feeling to settle for less can overwhelm your thoughts and leave you feeling defeated. Remember this, when you are asking God to lead the way, He is going to keep all of those wrong doors shut and only open the right one. When you feel the least like praising God through it is when you really need to do it. If I told you that God supported you 100% how would that affect your decisions?

God tells us that His plans are to prosper us and not to harm us.

It is uncanny to me, as a Momma, the ability that I have to see danger and/or opportunity that could potentially harm/or benefit my kiddos. I cannot tell you the times that my kids have been utterly distraught with me because I have had to tell them, "No".

I will never forget the day that I was getting the kids out of the car to go to the store. It started off like a wonderful adventure as my mini van bounced to the left and the right to the beat of the kids kicking and dancing to their kids cd that played inside. When the vehicle stopped and my kids were done with their duet, I opened the door and began to retrieve their cute lil selves and we began walking through the parking lot. My daughter decided that she was in charge with her 2 year old tiny little self and that she did not need to hold my hand. As she was pulling away from me and I was struggling to hold her and my 3 year old son, (both were too short for the cars to see if they were backing out, and so was i-when I was bent over wrestling a toddler) I spied with my Mommy eye, a car with reverse lights on at the parking spot my son was innocently behind At that moment, my other Momma eye spots a big truck barrelling down the middle of the parking lot right where my daughters fast lil feet were quickly approaching.

Neither my son or my daughter were very happy with me at that moment (nor were the drivers that I was screaming at to get their attention so they would stop) as I pulled both kids up quickly and we headed back to van and left, my kids continued to rebel and curse my existence!!! (in their own toddler sort of way)

I know I had promised my kids a mud puddle to jump in because it had just rained and that would be cool, right? ---but i could see the potential of us becoming the mud puddle if we had stayed on this uncontrollable course.

I can only imagine how God must feel with me sometimes. I am an adult now after all right, I know everything, because I am a Momma and I am keeping humans alive-so you know, I must be able to do everything myself!

God tells us to have childlike faith. I have to be honest here, I have no choice but to have that faith most of the time because honestly, I have no idea how in the world people survive this life without God. When I tell you that I have to wake up and believe in real life MIRACLES, I am not exaggerating. Now, do I fall short --obviously I do. But raising my kids alone I know that I have no one to depend on in this whole world-I need God and though I don't always like getting thrown back into the van when I want to go splash in a mud puddle, I am quite certain that God being a much better parent than I could ever be-that He knows when I am on the verge of becoming a puddle myself.

I realize it is hard when you are searching for a better way, you believe you are doing the right things but you keep getting rejected or let down and it leads your heart into a state of despair but please keep in mind-when we ask God for His will, He is loyal and faithful. He does not want you or your family to do without. He loves you-He wants what is best for you. If that possible relationship isn't for you and you have asked God to protect you and shield you-then for whatever reason, the call just may not come through. Careers are the same, events are the same---stay prayed up and speak up the promises of God. His word will never, ever return a void.

..... and another fun fact---when you see what God does with your situation then you will know it is God. He can do this so much better than we can. These times are reminders that God is who He says He is and that God is in fact present in YOUR situation. He is right there, front and center with you and for you...When a way is made when there was no way... that's how we know what we know and that's we show others so they can know too...

I cannot wait to hear you victory story.... always praying for you,

W/love, Venus